Christmas Day was very difficult for me. I’m sure this comes as no surprise for those of you who have lost your mom, but it hit me like a ton of bricks.
We had had a good month. We talked about Grandma Ackerman quite a bit. We even talked about gifts we’d give her and what she’d give us. We went about life feeling good and even accomplished most of my to-do list for the Christmas season. Then Christmas morning, as we were saying family prayer, it hit me and I was a wreck the rest of the day. I cried at least half the time and other half I just sat around like a lump!
I guess it didn’t help either that my mom was always looking for the right gift for Christmas and if she happened to find that gift in May, she’d buy it. So opening a gift from my mom that morning I think made things even harder. Steve and Sara agreed!!
It took a few days (or weeks) to pull out but I’m feeling good again. I still get sad pretty easy but I’m sure that will go on for some time.
But now that I’ve gotten that off my chest, I can record the events of Christmas day and leave out my sadness.
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